That is to say, he is in a certain sense book- and language-determined, and he's obscurely aware that this is his problem even as it's a source of pride for him.

意思就是，某种程度上他的意志是由书籍和语言决定的，他也模模糊糊地明白即便这是他引以为豪的,同时也是他的一个问题。

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