I tried so hard for so many years, but I have never understood him. Now, I don't need to understand, and I don't want to. Whether to die or to live, he is now in my hands, I can do whatever I want.

我努力了那么多年，从来都不懂他的，不过现在已经不需要懂也不想懂了，是死是活，他如今在我手里，我想怎样都行。

youdao

I tried so hard for so many years, but I have never understood him. Now, I don't need to understand, and I don't want to. Whether to die or to live, he is now in my hands, I can do whatever I want.

我努力了那么多年，从来都不懂他的，不过现在已经不需要懂也不想懂了，是死是活，他如今在我手里，我想怎样都行。

youdao