She had taken a solemn vowofchastity since then, like one of her made-up childhood rituals of lying in freezing cold water, but to someone with her natural generosity it was a heartless, bitter thing.
One former seminarian, who did not want to be named because he is still active in the church and not authorized to speak publicly, told CNN the vowofchastity was one of the chief reasons he dropped out of the vocation.